Once I was imagining having no friends or relatives in this world. I thought I must be nice to live with your own rules without any suspicious thought of others. Then I realized I felt alienated in this new town. I have no one but myself.
Maybe my language advisor is right, “it will take time Indri” she said. Why? Because I am in different country now; I’m in a country where most people would prefer pasta rather than rice, country where shopping centre closes at 4 pm, country where Barbie looking girls and rock star looking boys are crossing the street, country which has (more or less) 7000 times higher living cost, country where making interaction is not as easy as I used to. I found myself as a different person here. I don’t hang out, I do groceries shopping, I’m more self-organized, I ask questions in class, and I go to the library almost every day.
This is not the real me, am I in the stages of culture shocks? As I’m facing the stages where I found everything is different? I’m not regret either worried; I just need to get out of this illusion cage and want to be ‘me’. Me as the optimist person, me as the social creatures who can easily makes friend, me as me. I guess I just need some time to blend with all these new idea of living, and as I will blended with this society another questions shall arise. The question would be will I change or will I not?
30 Januari 2009
Pseudo cultural and psychological shocks!
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